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I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains
pour your misery down on me
pour your misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I’m only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn’t accidentally tell you that
I’m only happy when it rains
You’ll get the message by the time I’m through
When I complain about me and you
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down on me
You can keep me company
As long as you don’t care
I’m only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I’m riding high upon a deep depression
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
I’m only happy when it rains
Pour some misery down on me
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| Be Truthful...Be Mean... |
[07 Dec 2004|10:36pm] |
who are you, what's our relationship:
how and where did we meet:
what's my middle name:
how long have you known me:
tell me one good thing about myself:
when you first saw me what was your impression:
my age:
birthday:
my favorite band at the moment:
color eyes:
do i have any siblings:
have you ever had a crush on me:
what's one of my favorite things to do:
do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
describe me in 3 words:
name 5 things i love:
tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
what do you like most about me:
if we could spend a day together what would we do:
have we ever gotten in a fight:
do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
What do you think my weakness is?:
Do you think I'll get married?:
What makes me happy?:
What makes me sad?:
What reminds you of me?:
If you could give me anything what would it be?:
When's the last time you saw me?:
you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?:
Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?:
Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?:
If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?:
What song (if any) reminds you of me?:
If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?:
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Fill this out--comment anonymously, and I'll try to guess who you are.
1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One non-compliment.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. And a hint(inside joke) as to who you are
Not much has been happening...that I really feel like talking about.
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Hey
This is public because I'd really like to know.
Does anybody know Brycen Ferguson's screen-name or if he has one?
Thanks.
Kayla Gail
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[19 Oct 2004|04:32pm] |
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Stole it from Jamie, who stole it from Kelsey, so I guess by the trasitive property I stole it from Kelsey.
Ask me 3 questions. Any three, no matter how personal, private, or random, and I have to answer them honestly.
Then in turn, post this message in your own journal.
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[14 Oct 2004|04:42pm] |
THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998
Listen to the mustn'ts, child.
Listen to the don'ts.
Listen to the shouldn'ts,
The impossibles, the won'ts.
Listen to the never haves,
Then listen close to me ...
Anything can happen, child.
Anything can be.
~ Shel Silverstein
Six years ago, Matthew Shepard was murdered for being homosexual.
What will you do to end the silence?
Click here to post this on your own page or weblog</center
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I Love John Mayer. I love how he thinks...
Not much to say really. School has been pretty sucky, but when is it not. I really like A Seperate Peace. I'm on page 130-ish, it's one of the best books I've read for school.
I was walking down the hall yesterday and I remembered going to geometry. I walked side by side with him, holding his hand. It was snowing, hard. The beautiful, quiet kind of snow with giant flakes falling delicately all around. We stood between the portables and he kissed me. And it was beautiful.
I forget what it's like to be "high on love".
And I'm not sure I miss him specifically, I just miss what we had. I miss having that. I miss how my entire body tingled when he touched me, and how it sent chills up my spine when he whispered in my ear. I miss how perfectly we fit together, but I know it could never happen like that again. I understand that. "I'm man enough to leave, man enough to always care" But I miss it.
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So there's this song by Jack Johnson and it says
"I don't want to be your regret, I want to be your cacoon"
Isn't that great? It's just...beautiful. I don't want to be something you look back on and say "what was I thinking?" I want to be your cacoon. I want you to be different, more beautiful after you leave me. I want to change you for the better. I know this will be over soon, so don't let me be something you think you wasted your time on...
It's just great.
I have to drop Adv. Chem because I can't take Cats 10 anywhere other than where it is unless I drop Drivers Ed. Which blows major balls. Because Adv. Chem is more important to me, but D.E. is more important to my dad. So I told him about it and he said "at least you get to keep driver's ed. You know you could just take your basic classes and still go to Marshall, Kayla." Thanks for all your support there dad. Love you too.
Mom bought me a heavier things John Mayer pick. It rocks so HARD. I'm in love with it. It's in my frame with my guard from my guitar.
I'm doing this reader's log for honors, and it's really fun. It makes me think. I like to think. Like a runner when he finally finds his rhythm. It's the same way with me, but I don't burn as many calories. It kind of sucks though. Sometimes I wonder if I believe the way I think I do, or if I just say stuff because it sounds good. Sometimes I feel like such a bad person. And you don't have to be like "no kayla you're a great person, I love you" It's okay, I know I'm not all that great. I've squared with it, and I'm going to make improvements.
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| IGNORE THE LAST ONE |
[17 May 2004|09:07pm] |
Okay when I cut the last one it messed up so ignore it. THis is it man. FUN STUFF
quotes from last night
I CALL GINGER SPICE
hey jamie just said hed pay 20 bucks for the video
colin is a PK?
jamie goes, "DUDE OH GOD THAT SUCKS DUDE NOOOO!"
"HI, I'm Brittany, nice to meet you"
CHSBrittBratt: we need scary
Covered n Rayne: haha
Covered n Rayne: if jamie still had hair
Covered n Rayne: hahahaha!
CHSBrittBratt: HAHAHAHAHAHAH
Covered n Rayne: laughing hysterically
CHSBrittBratt: me too!
CHSBrittBratt: i just told him
CHSBrittBratt: he said totally not
CHSBrittBratt: we could rtoll him in mud!
CHSBrittBratt: HAHAHAHA
Covered n Rayne: HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHSBrittBratt: THATS TOO GREAT!
CHSBrittBratt: we have to be like "this was scary spice before drugs"
CHSBrittBratt: an this... is now
CHSBrittBratt: or before cancer
CHSBrittBratt: HAHA
CHSBrittBratt: LUNG CANCER
JESSICA
Covered n Rayne: HAHAHA!
CHSBrittBratt: we could be like she went the michael jackson route
::pounds chest:: PK!
I told jamie if we make one with him, kels can't be in it because then we are left without any action
CHSBrittBratt: l;ets make a nazi video
Covered n Rayne: HAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHSBrittBratt: we can start in a library
Covered n Rayne: THAT IS TERRIBLE!
CHSBrittBratt: and ill be like oh no theyre going to shove me in an oven
CHSBrittBratt: LOL]
CHSBrittBratt: but FUNNY
CHSBrittBratt: whip-cha!
CHSBrittBratt: ill never let go, jack!
CHSBrittBratt: hahaha
Covered n Rayne: ::glug glug glug::
Brittany Means...is the best girl,
Preacher's Kid, conservative
Laughs really loudly
Always has
A joke to make me smile
kayla g. imes
makes la--augh
cuase g is like in g-dawg or gizzle
shes real gangsta and we have fun
every time were near each ...other
WORD TO YO FAMILAY
yo, the names britt, some call me Cray-Z
Im down wwit that rap cuase i like jay-Z
I im the best girl ya'll ever did see
cause i dotn just rap, im in cyac!
K dizzle commin atcha to make ya say please
I make all da bois get down on they knees
All the laydays up in here wanta have my name
Cuz thatz what all da fellaz always screaaaaaaaaam
here comes the britt, yo that girl look good
she might be white, but shes know the hood.
all them boys ooh they wish they could
cause they say that white girl keep them stiff like wood
Covered n Rayne: so let go ya mynd n foget that crap
CHSBrittBratt: we dont need no drugs or boys in our lap
Covered n Rayne: no wait
Covered n Rayne: i do
Uh, it's the k-to the a-to the y
Bois wanna eat me like i was pie
I make em wanna stand up now and try
to hit that *OHH* of mine that's fly
winter formal k and b hit that *beep*
yeah them boys just couldnt keep up with it
matt and matt they stepped up to hit
but both struck out man them boys was split
all he wanted was my sex
when i said no he then said "next"
now all the boys they follow me
lyke i was the queen bee
he told me once i was like never
and i said well aint you oh so cleva
now we spend weeknights on the phone
we aint too sad cause were all alone
we know if we try we can get some *beep*
but you pk's too upper class!
bois wanna act like i'm a whore
all they wanna do is score
they dunno they'll get no more
so I check them like my coat at the door
we tired of bein stared at thats fo sho
of being played like that bass by that boy tnamed bo
what they don't know is that we see it when they start to lie
so by the time that they confess they can't even try
shout out to matthew and another one to matt
boys you know you missed where its at
us girls in bikinis, you aint got a chance
dont try to start bull*beep* romance
yo we might be young but we know our stuff
you can call our phone but we'll call your bluff
so if you think you wanna if you think you can
let me introduce you to this old man
you gotta get past him if you wanna be a fan
your name here, meet my friend dan.
what i didn't know is it was just a game
when you weren't around you didn't know my name
well little boy lemme tell that i am about through
you ejaculate into books and return them past due
so if you wantin is a hard core *beep*
you best try somewhere else cause you out of luck
we good for a laugh we good for a cry
but you want the v-card, we say goodbye
lemme tell ya baby boy if ya wanna bite
Im not coming over later, later tonight
So if ya lookin to me to get some bleep
ill tell ya im sorry cause im fast asleep
pk is comin yo pk is here
we dont mean harm so have no fear
we just sayin watch out if you nuttin but trouble
cause remember there's dos, and we can kick yo *beep* double.
if what ya wantin is a nice little girl to twerk
lemme tell ya there twerp,
i'll kick yer *beep* in a skirt
I don't care if your the tough guy in front of yo friends
Look at me wrong, i'll show em its all pretend
you think we dont see it but surprise we do
make us think twice when we tryin'-a talk to you
them glances down south when we face to face
slow it down, boy, you know it aint a race.
cuz when ya wishin and ya dishin
all that romance crap
thinkin talkin and walkin's
gonna getcha in my lap
gotta say hold up
gotta stop it up front
cuz it aint gonna happen
you son of a cunt
think i'm gonna fill yo fantasy
all i really wanna do is leave
i'll find a boy who can treat me right
and it'll be me and him stayin up all night
i'm sorry little man
hate to bring ya down
i really didn't mean
to steal your crown
just thought that i would let ya know
that i can see right through your
low-budget show
if all ya wantin is a booty call
go find some ho at the mall
All your wanting is a one night
and all ya wanna do is tap that thing
wait there babe, where's my ring
until i get that you don't get a thing
so if we shakin and bakin and makin all this till the break of dawn
you know you can come on over but you cant come on
you can hit it from the back on floor til we drop
but baby hate to tell ya boy thats where it stops
today was a blast, today was fun
swimmin in the pool without the sun
time to end the rap cause we runnin out of rhyme
but you know we be back for a second time
dunk one dunk two ddunk final for three
you they be in the name of the trinity!
so we back to the theme a little boys dream
kayla and britt gonna make you scream
I know that is really really long and I'm sorry
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Haha. Yesterday was awesome. All day. I woke up and mom dad jake n lib went to Logan for church and I stayed home. It was nice. I took a bath and shaved and then Leah's mom picked me up and Em was there and we went to the cast party! It was so much fun! Jamie shaved his head...completely. It doesn't look bad, I don't think, but it is really weird. Not weird, just different.
We came home and I watched some of Lord of the Rings 2 and I'm all excited about it coming out and Harry Potter also! YAY!
I think we might go to putt putt soon. I hope so. I miss everybody at theatre already ::tear::. I'm really going to miss Kate and Karen. I love them. But Putt Putt is definitely going to rock so hard.
::Pounds Chest:: PK! Haha! That video is going to be awesome. I'm excited about making it. Sorry Jamie, you can't be our cameraman. It's all good though, you still get a copy.
Britt M. and I were really gangsta last night and made up all these raps. I'll post them later. It was so fun! I love you girl!
Oh well, off to school. Oh the rapture.
"Old love, leave me alone"
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| I'm back...for now |
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01. who are you, what's our relationship:
02. how and where did we meet:
03. what's my middle name:
04. how long have you known me:
05. tell me one good thing about myself:
06. when you first saw me what was your impression:
07. my age:
08. birthday:
09. my favorite band at the moment:
10. colour eyes:
11. do i have any siblings:
12. have you ever had a crush on me:
13. what's one of my favorite things to do:
14. do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. describe me in 3 words:
16. name 5 things i love:
17. do you think i'm good looking:
18. how would you describe me to someone:
19. would you ever date me:
20. tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: what do you like most about me:
22: if we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?
Hey everybody I'm back and a lot has happened and I really just don't feel like writing it all, but I'm back. I've missed posting in this stupid thing which is really weird. It's just typing right?
AP closed tonight, I am sad, but I got my voice back! And Cast party is tomorrow! HOORAY!
"I loved you, grey sweatpants, no makeup so perfect"
Why can't all guys say stuff like that?
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This is my last entry
Mom is mad at me because she thinks I hate living here and Dad doesn't want me to do it because I will make them all look bad. ANd i don't mean to they are great parents and I wouldn't trade them for the world. So if I've portrayed them badly, I didn't mean to. I love them. They are fantastic and they give me the world.
So I'm not doing this anymore.
Peace
Kayla gail
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Hey everybody, I'm making this Friends only so if ya want on, reply. You have three days...
Today was the talent show and there were some good parts. Mostly bad parts, but Alex and Andy played Led Zeppelin and Kris rocked out. The song he wrote was awesome. I really really liked it. I liked the one Mr. Pahl wrote too. But Kris popped into Johnny No Such Thing and I died. I couldn't even scream. Jordan did so incredibly great. He broke a string but nobody really noticed. He still did so awesome. It was the best.
At lunch when everyone was setting up I said "hey Jordan, play me a song" and he came over and sat right in front of me and played comfortable and I just died. I was almost in tears. It was the best thing ever. I want a guy who will play guitar for me. Then Dorkie and I walked over to where he was playing (his mom and dad were sitting there) and I said Hi to his mom and met his father. They are both really really nice. Madora said him and Stacey broke up, but they got back together I guess. I was happy. The song they wrote rocked. I just sat there and looked at them and that is so what I want to do for the rest of my life. I just want to make music.
DOES ANYBODY KNOW JORDAN'S SCREEN NAME?!
"So what, so I've got a smile on, well it's hiding the quiet superstitions in my head. Don't believe me when I say I've got it down..."
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[25 Apr 2004|08:11pm] |
If I were a month, I'd be: October
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Wednesday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 5:47
If I were a sea animal, I'd be a: Starfish
If I were a direction, I'd be: West
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be a: Beanbag chair
If I were a sin, I'd be: Temptation.
If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Athena
If I were a liquid, I'd be: Cherry Coke
If I were a tree, I'd be a: Weeping Cherry
If I were a bird, I'd be a: Nightengale
If I were a tool, I'd be a: Screwgun!
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be a: Oriental Lily
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: warm summer rain
If I were a musical instrument, I'd be: Guitar
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: Fairy
If I were an animal, I'd be a: Tiger
If I were a color, I'd be: Black
If I were an emotion, I'd be: Melancholy
If I were a vegetable, I'd be a: celery stick
If I were a sound, I'd be: HO!
If I were an element, I'd be: Fire
If I were a car, I'd be a: VW Microbus
If I were a song, I'd be: Underneath_Hanson
If I were a book, I'd be: Lullaby
If I were a fruit, I'd be a: Banana
If I were a place, I'd be: Scotland
If I were a material, I'd be: Cotton
If I were a taste, I'd be: Mocha Frappe
If I were a scent, I'd be: Sex
If I were a religion, I'd be: Kaylish
If I were a word, I'd be: Ho!
If I were an object, I'd be a: Pencil
If I were a body part, I'd be a: Hand
If I were a subject in school, I'd be: Rock Music Appreciation! (someone needs to start that)
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: Wink
If I were a manga/cartoon/anime/book/etc.. character, I'd be: Good Luck Bear *IRISH ALL THE WAY*
If I were a shape, I'd be a: Shamrock
If I were a number, I'd be: 1977 *DUH* lol Dorkie
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FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.
~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla</
suprising? I think not.
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Friday I bought four pairs of underwear. I cute little thong with cherries on it, A blue pair that says "lets get physical" on the front and "rock my world" on the butt. A pair that is pink and has a crown on the front and says "booty queen" on the butt and the black pair with the glow in the dark guitars on it. They rock all others. I love underwear. And lip gloss. What a strange combination...
Saturday was awesome! I loved it! Madora and I are going to be Candy Stripers at the hospital. I love it there. I just enjoy helping people. It made me feel great just walking them around, man. How great is that? We're going next Saturday to a Children's fair. I'm so excited. AH I WANT TO WORK IN THE HOSPITAL UNTIL I DIE!
Today I woke up at seven so I could go to Logan for Sunday school. Mom had to give out her avon. Sunday school was cool. Ivan was there with Luther, so I just talked to Carol, who needs to stop smoking. After sunday school we went to McDonald's and I had chicken nuggets and fries. Mmmm. But that place in Logan sucks! The people there were so rude. I was very dissatisfied. Nobody go there! haha. Then we drove to Charleston so I could go to practice. And it went really realyl well today. It finally looks like it is going to come together. I'm excited. I really need to start running or something so I don't get so out of breath during the Letterman and I can actually sing...lol. How sad. Grace was so good today. I don't know why, but that is when I decided we were all going to make it. And Right to Know was awesome. I could finally feel where all these people were coming from and I realized what was going on. It was awesome. That moment when you realize everything is the best in the world.
I swear I want a bunch of kids. Libby just walked in and was like Kayla I wash hands...dirty kayla dirty! And I just smiled and said "okay libby, we'll wash your hands" and I did and she said "I tell mommy dirt off all gone clean hands!" It is the sweetest thing ever!
"She plays guitar with her fingertips
She'll play your heart with her tender lips"
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I've decided why my mother makes me mad sometimes. She never compliments me, or when she does, it's followed by something I need to change. Kayla your hair is so pretty why don't you do something with it. Kayla, you have such a pretty face. Why don't you stop hiding it. Or it's just saying Kayla you have all those blackheads on your face, you need to do something about that. And it isn't much, but after about five years of it going on and bottling it all up it gets kind of annoying and I always snap at her. And she doesn't deserve it when she does it, but in a way she kind of does. I don't mean to snap at her as much as I do. I feel like such a bad child for doing it because mom does do so much for me, it just doesn't seem like it all the time. And this isn't the first time it's been like this. It's been like this since maybe fourth grade.
I'm kind of upset because this guy who pretends he likes me only wants pics of me naked. Go figure huh? Where are all the people not trying to get in my pants? And I quote "ya know ya never sent me any pics .. that saddens me baby" Oh gosh, get a life.
Stroke screening fair tomorrow from 8 to 2 at Thomas Memorial. I'm kind of excited about it. I have to be there at 7 30. Mom said she would take me and Madora. And then she gives me crap about it. Whatever man. Whatever. Anyway, I'm excited about going. It's six hours of awayness for Kayla. Tomorrow is Prom. I think I am going to rent a bunch of movies and make myself feel better. Or worse, depending on what movies I rent. I think I may have a Johnny Depp fest. But I want to rent Office Space but I kind of don't because it reminds me of Matthew. I dunno, I'll probably end up not renting any movies and spend my night in my room being away while being here.
I bought the Hanson Cd tonight. It dominates. Everybody go buy it! The other day I wrote that it came out on McCoy's board and Joe was like "Kayla, sorry but Hanson sucks" and I said "Joe, sorry, but you blow" and he just kind of shut up. It was really nice.
Yesterday before practice, Dad took Libby and I to the little playground across from the K-mart and stuff in St. Albans it was nice. There was this guy there, and he was a pretty big guy, and kind of rough looking too. And who I guess was his son and they were just playing. And it was nice. But there was this other guy there. He was a cop or something. The guy was on an allowed visitation or something. It almost made me cry. This guy was probably going back to jail and he was getting time to see his son. And I thought about how he'll get older and so will his kid and they'll talk less with each year and eventually they just won't be a part of each others' lives anymore. That's really really sad to think about for me. I don't know why. Just one of those things.
"Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me."
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